TETRIS BATTLE!

   Seriously, It wasn't really my intention to get addicted to that facebook game so called as "Tetris Battle". I was just sort of got curious for all my friends indeed are into to the said game. Well.. Just tried it for once and like a flashing lightnings, well.. Obviously, I instantly became a certified Tetris Addict! haha. Just a form of entertainment. But I make sure I spare time for more productive things I am appointed to do so. Killer assignments are approaching so, beware! haha. 

   Btw, I've just learned to play in guitar the song "Just so you know" by Jesse Mccartney. Hmm. I miss that song. Whenever I hear it, there's some kind of pounding in my heart or a pinch as well reminiscing the heartaches I had felt before. Sounds dramatic? Uhmm.. Just so you know. Haha.

P.S. My Christmas went good but as usual, there's always someone who's missing. I get rid of it by the way but my heart still hurts in some ways.

CHRISTMAS EVE!

   I still can't believe it. God! Its almost Christmas! Christmas eve na mamayang gabi. Then, its Jesus' birthday tomorrow! Man! Why Christmas has to come by so fast? Haha. But I love it. Its the most beautiful time of the year ika nga ni JB. (JB? Eww!) haha. Uhmm. Ngayong bakasyon, I'm soooo tinatamad gumawa ng journal. I really am. Haha. Wala pa ata akong nagagawang productive, I think. Maliban nalang noong tinulungan ko si Mother Dear na mag-shopping. *LOL* Btw, sa sobrang pagkahumaling ko ata sa movies these past few days, bigla nalang nagmaktol ang laptop ko. Oh-Em! Hindi ako sure kung ang sira nga nya ay battery. Ang nangyayari lang kasi eh, kapag nakasaksak yung charger, nagagamit ko pa naman sya ng ayos pero pag inalis mo sa pagkaka-charge, namamatay nalang sya bigla tapos ayaw pa mabuhay ng hindi naka-plug in ang charger. God! *sigh* Any technician out there? Kung battery man ang sira, ang mahal. Haaays. It can cost from 3k up to 5k. Gooosh! Sabi kasi ni Mother siguro na-overused na eh. Simula daw kasi ng natututo akong mag-download ng movies, hayun, hindi ko na daw tinigilan. Halos maghapon at magdamag na daw ako nonstop sa movie marathon. Kfine! Its my fault. :'( Ang gaganda kasi ng movies eh. Matapos ko ma-recap ang HP 1 to 7, heto naman, nahuhumaling naman ako sa love stories. *laughs* Puro nga nakakaiyak yung mga napapanood ko. Lalo na yung "The time traveler's wife". Naku! Try to watch it, surely you won't regret it! haha. So, hanggang dito nalang muna. Just wanna make sure that I keep in touch. Hoho! More stories later! Merry Christmas.

TSSS!

   Grabe lang, naiinis na ko. Makapag-post na nga lang dito. Hmm. Okay, badtrip na naman ako ngayon. So ano? Drama na naman ba? Uhh, Si ano kasi... Don't wanna mention his/her name. Ewan ko. Nakakaasar lang. Hindi ko naman ma-express ng ayos ang nararamdaman ko eh. Baka kasi may makabasa or mabasa nya. Uhmm, basta nakakatampo sya, nakakainis, nakaka.... Ayoko na magparamdam sa kanya. Ayoko na sa kanya. Ugh, sasabihin lang non sa'kin, ano namang dapat ko ikatampo sa kanya? Kfine. Hirap naman magdrama sa taong hindi naman nakakaintindi sa nararamdaman ng iba. Anong magagawa ko, eh sa iyon ang nararamdaman ko eh? Sabi nga noong tweet na nabasa ko, "Ginagawa kong joke yung mga bagay na gusto ko talagang sabihin sayo." ha??? Ang hirap talaga magpahalaga/magmahal sa taong ine-echapwera(?) ka lang. EFF!


P.S. Uhm, binasa ko ulit yung ilang previous entries ko dito sa blog. Napansin ko lang, hindi na ako masyado nag-eenglish sa mga latest posts ko. *laughs*

ENERVON!

   Enervon? Eh kasi, feeling ko ang energetic ko ngayong araw. *laughs* Ang "dami" ko kasing nagawa eh. Iba-ibang tao ang na-encounter ko today, iba't-ibang stories. Actually, weird yet funny stories! hihi. Let me enumerate them. Let's start in the morning... 

   Again, we pretended na may pasok kami ngayong araw. Jessa and I went to Tanauan to claim my ATM card but first, gumala muna kami sa SM (Sidera Mall). haha. Sa dami ng nangyari today, sasabihin ko nalang yung highlights ng bawat pangyayari. *LOL*

• Noong tumatambay kami sa 7'11 habang nainom ng super laking Big Gulp (super laki na nga, BIG pa. haha Nahilo nga ata ako doon eh.), Nakita namin na dumadaan si Sales. Wow Men! Parang nasa bahay lang oh, naka-shorts and slippers! (Mabuti pa nga na ganoon ang suot nya, mas mukhang tao, kesa sa over-decorations na ginagawa nya sa katawan nya. *LOL*) Hindi nga ata kami nakita, deadma eh. Sabi pa ni Jessa, in some point, "cute" daw si Sales?? then I'm like "huh?" sabay sabi ng "Eewee!" *ROFLOL* 

• Sa BPI, while claiming may ATM, the girl beside me approached me kung saan daw kami nagta-trabaho ni Jessa, then sabi ko, estudyante lang po kami sa PUP. Uhm, walang halong panglalait ha? Pero ewan ko ba kung banlag si ate or duling lang talaga. haha. Paglabas kasi namin ni Jessa sa BPI, tawa sya ng tawa, hindi daw nya malaman kung ako ang kausap ni ate or sya. Muntik na nga daw sumabog yung tawa nya kanina eh. Grabe lang! Ang bad nya ha? Pero kahit ako natatawa. *laughs*

• Sa Walter, noong kumakaen kami sa McDonald's, may dalawang Arabo na tumabi sa amin ni Jessa. Errr! Creepy-looks talaga ang mga Taga-Middle East noh? Uhm pero, Grabee! Tawang-tawa na ako sa kanila. As in ROFL! haha. Nakakatakot yung itsura nila na parang Rapist pero imbis na matakot, natatawa lang ako. Alam mo kasi yung dila nila? Parang sa every word na sinasabi nila, yung laway nila tumatalsik. Eeeeew! IKR. haha. Para mas malaman mo kung paano, kilala mo ba si "Crazy Dave"? Yung tindero sa shop ng Plants vs. Zombies? Yun! Ganoon sila magsalita. *laughs*

• On our way home, sa jeep, yung girl sa dulo nakakaawa! Parang stressed na stressed sya tapos kulang na kulang sa tulog. Akalain mo ba naman, nakatulog na sa jeep na pa-sway-sway ang ulo. Sobrang tawang-tawa na kami ni Jessa, as in! haha. Nakakaawa si ate na nakakatawa. Ang matindi pa doon, naka-headset pa! Tapos kapag pe-preno yung jeep, nagigising sya tapos makakatulog na ulit. Inaabangan na nga namin na malaglag sya sa kinauupuan nya eh. haha joke! Basta nakakatawa kasi eh. *laughs* sabi nga ni Jessa, siguro daw kung biglang nag-Paramore yung song sa ipod ni ate, gitla yon! *LOL* Tinatawanan na nga rin sya ng mga katabi nya, yung 3 girls na parang familiar sa'kin yung si chubby girl, aba akalain mo, ka-Barangay ko pala yon. haha. Muntik ko pa makasabay sa tricycle yung tatlo, buti nalang hindi, ang ingay kasi nila eh. hehe. Btw, Ang ganda noong isang girl na kasama nila ha? Hindi ako nale-lesbian. ok? Maganda lang talaga. hihi :) Kamukha kasi sya ni Barbie Forteza. Gondo pa ng eyes, sa STA ata pumapasok yung mga yon. hihi.

• Lastly, sa Chapel, 1st time ko nagsimbang-gabi for this year, hindi ko alam start na pala yon kagabi pa? Pero bakit ganoon, binilang ko naman sya from 16 to 24, 9 masses naman. Hmm? Bahala na. Basta present dapat ako sa 9 nights na natitira. haha. Uhm, while waiting for the priest, nakipagkulitan muna ako sa mga batang hindi ko naman kilala? Nice noh. haha. Tapos itong si cutie 3-year-old boy (Actually, nakikita ko na sya last year pa, kumpleto nga rin nya ang simbang-gabi.)  Ang kulit sobra! Sobrang cute pa nya. Ang taba kasi. haha. Basta! Close na kami. *LOLs*

P.S. Buti pa yung kapatid ko may acoustic guitar na nga, binili pa ng bagong electric guitar! samantalang ako, acoustic guitar na nga lang ang request ko, di pa ko nibili. Hiraman nalang daw kami! T-T

Christmas Break??

   Oh-Em! Vacation na ba talaga? Parang ayoko pa ah! Pa-post lang saglit, actually wala nga ako sa mood ngayon. Ayoko lang talaga matagalan ng pagpo-post ng entries dito. Hindi ko pa feel ang bakasyon at mas lalong ayoko pa magbakasyon. Masaya talaga sa school eh. At mas lalong masaya ang may baon. *laughs* Itong mga classmates ko, todo ang GMs eh, wag na daw pumasok! Si Honorato lang naman daw yon! haha. I do hate him talaga. Halos lahat ng ginagawa namin para sa kanya, hindi na sya naawa. Hmm, Btw, badtrip talaga ako ngayon. (Okay lagi naman.) Basta ang tragic kasi ng mga pangyayari kanina. *frown* Bahala na muna ako at siya, Have a nice winter vacation! *sigh*

   P.S. Next time na ako magke-kwento ng happy ha? Sa mga panahong happy din ako. Byee.


    P.S again, after ilang days, nakabili din ako ng converse. Ang badtrip kasi eh, masyado ako pinaghihintay. Ang hirap talaga ng mga taong indecisive, bukod sa nagpapaasa ka na, nakakainsulto ka pa. Out of topic. Kdot.

OA na naman! tsss..

   Kahit ako mismo natatawa at nao-OA-yan na sa sarili ko. Ano bang magagawa ko? Eh sa 'yon ang nagyayari sa'kin eh.. *sighs* Ang gulo sa bahay namin. Hindi ko na maintindihan. Gooood! Hindi na ata ako ngumingiti dito eh. Bukod pa nga yung issue ng father ko at nung sa mga grandparents ko eh. Nabibingi na ko. Gusto ko na nga maglayas! haha. Pero mas kawawa nman ako kapag ginawa ko yon. *LOL* Haaaays. Tapos sasabay pa yung topak ni bestfriend at topak ko. Isama mo pa yung reseach paper, quizzes at recitations sa school. Kiiiiill me now!!

.......

Can anybody hear me?

Am I talking to myself?

My mind is running empty

In the search for someone else

Who doesn’t look right through me.

It’s all just static in my head

Can anybody tell me why I’m lonely like a satellite?

‘Cause tonight I’m feeling like an astronaut

Sending SOS from this tiny box

And I lost all signal when I lifted up

Now I’m stuck out here and the world forgot

Can I please come down, cause I’m tired of drifting round and round

Can I please come down?

I’m deaf from all the silence

Is it something that I’ve done?

I know that there are millions

I can’t be the only one who’s so disconnected

It’s so different in my head.

Can anybody tell me why I’m lonely like a satellite?

‘Cause tonight I’m feeling like an astronaut

Sending SOS from this tiny box

And I lost all signal when I lifted up

Now I’m stuck out here and the world forgot

Can I please come down, cause I’m tired of drifting round and round

Can I please come down?

Now I lie awake and scream in a zero gravity

And it’s starting to weigh down on me.

Let’s abort this mission now

Can I please come down?

So tonight I’m calling all astronauts

Calling lonely people that the world forgot

If you hear my voice come pick me up

Are you out there?

‘Cause you’re all I’ve got!

‘Cause tonight I’m feeling like an astronaut

Sending SOS from this tiny box

And I lost all signal when I lifted up

Now I’m stuck out here and the world forgot

‘Cause tonight I’m feeling like an astronaut

Sending SOS from this tiny box

To the lonely people that the world forgot

Are you out there?

‘Cause you’re all I’ve got!

Can I please come down?

‘Cause I’m tired of drifting round and round.

Can I please come down?

   Read the lyrics.. Affected ako. Kinda. Hmm. Feeling ko ang sad-sad ko today, I just can't figure out the real cause of it. Waley, nagda-drama lang siguro ako? haha *sigh* But you know what? Its really hard to love someone that doesn't even know that you exist at all. I mean, not literally. Well, just can't catch his full attention, something like that, for he is looking at somebody else. Ang hirap pala sa feeling.. Yung maging somewhat "echapwera" or maging pangalawa or whatsoever sa kanya. Pero sa'yo naman, tanging sya lang ang una, top of the list ika nga. I dunno. Might ask him with my feelings but of course, its not what he's going to tell me. Its not what he is supposed to say for I know what really is it and I hate it. *super sigh* 

   P.S. Its raining. Makikisabay pa ba sa'kin? tss.. Ang bitter ko talaga, sino kayang magpapa-sweet sa'kin? Well.. Sino nga ba? Wala naman ah. Wala namang may pakialam sa'kin eh. Ikaw ba? Do you care? *sigh*

OLD BLUE JEANS!

   Naalala ko lang yung song ni Miley Cyrus na "Old-blue-jeans" kaya ito yung title ng entry ko dito. Wala lang! *laughs* Well.. My story is really about Jeans but not that kind of Old & Blue naman. haha. Save the story later. Today is an unexpectlly-tiring day! Noong umaga, okay pa naman ang flow ng day ko. Walang Econ eh. Kaya Parteh-Parteh talaga ko don! *giggles* Ligtas kasi sa quiz at recitation. haha! Naalala ko din yung quiz namin sa ICT, pansin siguro ni Ma'am na may leakage yung quiz nya kaya binago nya yung format. Kaasar lang! Sira tuloy yung plano naming magka-kaklase! Hindi pa tuloy naka-perfect! haha. And btw, nakakatawa talaga pag time ng ICT or Marketing ha? Ito kasing mga classmates ko, lalo na si Dhianne at Eric laging nakiki-epal kay Ma'am. Nakakatawa naman yung mga binabanggit nila kaya hagalpak na kami sa tawa! *LOL* Isama mo pa yung bitter sumagot na si Sales! (Si Sidera Boy daw according to Krsna, bad noh? haha.) Utas much lang talaga! So far, even though I hate Tuesdays and Fridays, I really had fun today. Pero hindi pa dyan natatapos ang day ko! Si Bes (Yes! without letter "t") Krsna kasi, nag-aya pa sa Walter eh. Game namin kami ni Jessa dyan pero on one condition lang, kailangan nya kaming ilibre sa Mcdo! *laughs* Pero wag ka ha? Game din sya doon! hehe. Kakakuha lang kasi ng scholarship grant daw nya kaya mapera *chuckles* 5k din yon. Ang laki noh? uhm.. Kaya daw pala nag-aaya si Krsna sa Walter kasi bibili sya ng jeans. Ang hilig talaga ng babaeng yung sa jeans eh. Sobrang CHOOSY naman! Goooood! Noong nasa Walter na kami, grabe! Nahalukay na ata namin lahat ng jeans doon. Lahat na ata ng jeans na-suggest ko na kay Krsna pero susme.. Always rejected ang mga suggestions ko. *laughs* Kung hindi man sakto sa size, hindi nya type ang design or masyadong mahal! *LOL* 1 1/2 hrs din ata kaming nagpaikot-ikot sa buong Walter eh, pero wala pa ring napili itong si Krsna. Grabe lang! hehe. Nag-request kami na pakainin muna kami sa Mcdo.. at doon nga, nabusog naman ako sa Chicken fillet at Fries na bigay nya. *laughs* Sabi nya samin, sa SM (Sidera Mall) nalang daw kami humanap, ililibre nya daw kami ng pamasahe. Ako naman, kahit tinatawagan na ako ng over-protective kong MaDear, on the go pa rin ang lola nyo! *ROFL* Pero God! Hindi pa rin tapos ang Kalbaryo, sobrang choosy pa rin nitong si Krsna kahit sa SM! Wala pa ring mapili.. Nauutas na ko. *LOL* Hanggang sa inabutan na kami ng Lighting of Christmas tree sa Tanauan Plaza saka pati na rin noong Fireworks display. Umabot din ng I think, 5mins. yung fireworks. Ang ganda nga eh! Ang sweet ng ambiance naming tatlong BESes. Feeling ko noon eh, New year's eve! haha. Basta ang sentimental noong moment na yon! haha. OA na noh? And in the end, hindi pa rin nakabili ng jeans si Krsna! OMG! haha. At dahil kinukulit na ako ni MaDear na umuwi, around 8pm siguro, nag-aya na rin ako. Since nakita naman ni Krsna si Reymel (Isa pa naming classmate), sa kanya nalang daw sya magpapasama bumili ng jeans nya. Hayun, hinatid na nya kami ni Jessa sa sakayan. We really had fun today. Sobrang tawanan at asaran lang pero masaya naman! Kahit kaming tatlo lang *laughs* 

EYY!

   May sasabihin lang ako kaya ako nag-post. :) I made a new blog! Hooray! Pero yung blog na yon, exclusive lang para sa taong inaalayan ko ng mga mensahe na nakapaloob sa bago kong blog. So, kung sa tingin mo hindi ikaw yon, hindi ka makaka-receive ng invitation galing sa akin na ipinadala ko sa yahoo account mo. *laughs* Nang-aasar lang ako eh noh? hehe. I just finished posting my first entry there and also done picking some designs for it. I decided to be formal in my writings also. Hope it will be okay. Just that.. Goodnight!

BELATED HAPPY BORNDAY TO ME! :">

   Birthday ko nga pala last 27 noh? *LOL* Wala naman akong masasabi sa birthday ko. haha. Basta para sa akin, masaya ako dahil tumanda nadagdagan na naman ng panibagong taon ang buhay ko at nakarating ako sa ganitong edad ng masaya at walang problema. hihi. Noong araw ng birthday ko, tila hindi masyado nakiki-ayon ang pagkakataon sa akin. *Eks-Di* Pero yung mga experiences na yon ang nagpa-memorable sa birthday ko this year. Some things went bad first then it was redeemed and *poop!* I became happy again. haha. As of now, tinatamad talaga akong mag-kwento, sobrang stressed kasi ako eh. Hindi ko ba alam kung bakit *LOL* But I assure that I can spare my most precious time telling my stories here. Siguro kaya medyo tinatamad ako dahil gawa na rin ng mga school works such as homeworks, recitations at quizzes. Tapos kulang pa ako sa tulog. Well, as I was saying, Noon ngang birthday ko, okay.. its cool. I received some gifts tapos yung request ko kay Daddy dear, this weekends pa maga-grant I think hihi. And btw, I really love the Twilight Saga, "Breaking Dawn Part I". Its kind of turned into horror at the last part kasi naman si Bella eh, kinakain na ng sarili nyang anak. *laughs* Well.. well.. I really love the story, so as the movie. Next to Harry Potter (But I bet J.K. Rowling is really much better than Stephenie Meyer. hihi) just that, so excited for its 2nd part. Can't wait 'til its next year. *LOL* 

   Check out this song, even though I knew it for so long, I'm still mesmerized by it. haha. Its title is "It will Rain" by Bruno Mars. Yohoo! Its Bruno again! haha. Nakaka-inlove kasi yung song. Lalo na noong narinig ko sya sa movie na Breaking Dawn, mas nagka-impact pa. Gosh! So addicted to Twilight Saga na naman. :)

PS. My Birthday went good, so far. Funny yet exciting. *giggles*

BITTERSWEET!

   Good evening! Yey! what do you notice? Ang Sipag ko mag-post ngayon noh? *laughs* actually kakatapos ko lang gumawa ng journal kani-kanina lang and honestly, ayoko talaga ng free-handwriting. Oo, ako na nga ang tamad! Ayoko lang kasi ng sulat ko. Badtrip! Kakatawa noh? haha. Uhm, as of now, nanonood ako ng MMK. (Sana sa journal ko nalang nai-kwento ito noh? May grade pa sana ako. Pero wala eh, mas pinili kita! *LOL*) Naiiyak ako sa story. Noong una, natatawa lang ako pero noong nagtagal, sobra na akong nata-touch sa story. Ages don't matter nga naman. Hindi nga naman natanda ang puso at kahit ano pa ang edad mo, sumulpot man lahat ng wrinkles mo, mamuti man lahat ng buhok mo, hindi ka pa rin mawawalan ng karapatang umibig at lumigaya. Soo true. Despite of their bitter past, there they are, working it out together knowing they are free to love each other again. Its never too late, there's no such thing as too late. Dahil hangga't nabubuhay tayo, marami pa tayong magagawa. Kaya pa nating mabago ang ating kapalaran at kaya pa nating itama ang kamalian ng nakaraan. So tragic nga lang ng MMK, na-deads kasi si lola eh. Pero at least diba? even in her last breath, she did feel happy, she followed her heart. 

   Anyway, kanina sa kitchen namin, parang tila may flashback na naganap sa isipan ko. Yun ay noong napatulala ako sa ceiling at napatitig sa ilaw, bigla kong naalala ang Tatay ko.. *sigh* Naaalala ko yung moments na buo ang family namin, masaya at walang problema. Kung saan masaya kaming kumakaen, nagtatawanan at nagkukulitan. Nalulungkot talaga ako tuwing nararamdaman ko na malapit na naman ang Pasko, pero wala pa rin sya. Nasanay na akong wala sya at lagi ko nalang nasasagot sa sarili kong katanungan na kung "Namimiss ko ba sya?" laging HINDI ang sinasabi ko. Ang huling pagkakataon ata na buo ang family ko during Christmas eh noong grade 3 pa lang ako for he went abroad when I was turning grade 4. Ang lungkot lang talaga. *sigh* Knowing na hindi na sya babalik sa amin, na kahit kailan hindi na magiging masaya at mabubuo ang family namin. Bakit kasi umalis pa sya? Broken-family? SHOOT! :'(

PORNBOOK!

    Malapit na talaga! malapit na maging PORN SITE ang FACEBOOK! Grabe naman kasi. Ang lalaswa ng mga pino-post ng ilang admin ng mga malalaswang fan pages sa FB. Hindi lang basta pornographics ang makikita mo doon, pati viruses laganap na! Grabe talaga! Too much abuse ang nangyayari sa social network knowing they can post whatever they like so. Its disgusting! Uhh, grossy-heads! Hindi ba nila naisip na marami ang users ng Facebook? Children, elders.. whatsoever. Baka kung ano-ano pa ang makita ng mga bata doon eh. Hmm.. It is proven that these pornos rooted here in Philippines. Soo humiliating, if people behind won't stop, Philippines might be Banned using facebook. 

   Uhh, change topic, Sa oras na ginagawa ko ito, nanonood ako ng 100 days to heaven, the finale episode. Nakakaiyak. So inspirational. Sana tunay na may ganoon noh? Second chance with a 100-day-borrowed-life. I'll miss the casts. *laughs* Anyways, raging-examinations are approaching! Oh-Em! Hell week again! My brain is kinda malfunctioning and due to brain-destroying-thoughts intervention, I am afraid of its sudden expected explosion.

Sana hindi nalang lumaki 
si Harry noh? Ayun, natupad naman.. 
Hindi tumangkad eh! *LOL*

Alright, byee. So long nalang again. I'mma finish my started Potter movie, I'm on its 5th part. Near to end. Just a whole Movie sequel recap. I miss Hogwarts. *laughs*


and hey! My cough and cold are heavy! Pero walang tigil pa rin ako sa Buko Shake and some other very cold beverages. Sarap kasi eh! *LOL*

BLOODY HELL!

   Gotta tell you something, sobrang busy na ulit kami sa school works. New semester really is a disaster. Darn! Just steal a moment to post here. Nami-miss ko na kasi kwentuhan ang blog ko. *sigh* Btw, I've got started working on my journal. Yess, you read it right, JOURNAL! Si Honorato kasi. Monster talaga yon noh? Naiinis pa naman ako for some kind of such writings using my free-hand. I really hope I can post all the contents of my journal for you. Sana lang, hindi masapawan ang time ko sa pagsulat ko dito sa blog dahil sa sobrang pagka-busy ko sa pagjo-journal. Uhh, I really wish there's someone out there who appreciates my writings (Kahit alam kong wala). Got to sleep! may quiz pa kami bukas eh. byee..

PS. I hate our schedule! errr!!

UHM?

   Hey! Zup? haha. So bored lang kaya nakapag-post. Uhm, may I ask you Blogspot? kailangan ba may special someone ka para lang gumawa ng blog? I mean like boyfriends/girlfriends, crushes, idols, etc.? uhm Hindi naman kailangan diba? As for me kasi kung ganoon ang reason mo then you don't make a blog for yourself but for others. Right? ugh. Let's say nawala yung crush mo or whatsoever that may be, edi hindi kana magpo-post? Awkward! I just know someone who does it. I thought he is different. Hindi rin pala. Hala! wala lang. *laughs*

   And btw, I really feel so bored! Gosh! Ewan ko ba kasi. Sa school man kasi o sa bahay, puro unproductive things ang nagagawa ko (except doing the chores). Sa school kasi lagi namang walang profs eh. Nakakainip kaya maghintay sa wala! uggh. I dunno. Nothing's exciting by this time, for me. *sigh* Sa bahay, paulit-ulit ang routines ko, watching tv, eating, web surfing, downloading movies as well as watching them, listening to music and so forth. I need people! God! better pa rin siguro sa school dahil may nakakausap. I just hate that "waiting-for-nothing" stuff. Ayoko kasi ng na-iinip eh. Baka ma-murder ko na sila kung lagi ba nila akong pag-iintayin! *Devil Laugh*

PS. I got fond of Harry Potter movies again! *smiles*

PS. again, I don't need followers neither here on blogspot nor on twitter or kahit friends sa facebook para ma-enjoy ang buhay ko. I'm no Ms. Popularity. I don't need to be popular just to be happy and BTW, FYI, I hate BRAGS! err! 

SEMBREAK + GALA = KAHIRAPAN

  Binukod ko talaga ang post ng mga barkada get-aways ko para maka-move on na ko doon sa gruesome experience ko kanina! *laughs* Remember yung last-last post ko? Ang sabi ko doon, hindi ako pinayagan ng mother ko na sumama sa sleep over sa bahay nila Grace diba? Nag-try ulit ako magpaalam kinabukasan, through text inamo ko ang mom ko *LOL* I guess super convincing noon kaya napapayag ko sya. Sobrang "Yehey" talaga ako noong pumayag si Mother-Dear! haha Pero hindi rin naging madali ha? Since nasa work sya noon, kinailangan muna namin syang daanan to be sure na may kasama ako pag-alis. Nagpasama pa tuloy ako kina Karol at Jessa pagpapaalam kay Mother. Then, sakay kami ng Bus on the way to Alaminos, Laguna. Noong nasa bahay na kami nina Grace, Hayun nga, ang bait pa rin ng mommy ni Grace, sobrang maasikaso at ang sarap pa rin magluto. hihi :) As usual, "sleep over" na wala namang "sleep" ang naganap. *giggles* Sobrang saya pa rin. Mga classmate ko kasi sa San Pedro National High School ang mga kasama ko doon eh. Wala pa rin silang kupas. Mga baliw-baliwan lang at matatakaw pa rin! *ROFL* 

(Jelyn, Iryn, Carolle, Ako, Melvin)

Uhh, Hindi pa dyan natatapos ang gala ko with friends, Yesterday lang, pumunta kami sa bahay nina Carolle. Masyado ata kaming namimiss at nag-aya ng bonding. haha Ang tagal na nga naming plano yon, noong Summer pa! Grabe lang noh? *laughs* Kaya lang naman hindi matuloy-tuloy kasi mga Busy-busyhan sa college life ang tema ng mga baliw na yon eh. Finally! Heto na nga at natupad na rin sa Wakas! *smiles* Ang KJ nga lang ni Enrique. Pupunta raw syang Ibaan, Batangas sa puntod ng Lolo nya eh kaya daw hindi sya makakasama. Kainis yon! Sya pa naman ang kwela sa grupo eh, wrong-timing naman. Unexpectedly, si Iryn ang pumalit kay Enrique, ang super cute at talented kong Tropa! *laughs* "Tropa" Tawagan namin eh. So far, doing great namin sila. 5 lang kami (Ako, Carolle, Jelyn, Melvin, Iryn) pero parang sampu kami sa ingay namin. *LOL* Sobrang bait talaga ng Mama ni Carolle, ang dami nyang niluto for us, lunch meal, meriendas. Bukod pa yung binili naming 6 cantons, 2 tasty breads, 2 juices at 5 chichiryas! haha. Hindi nga namin naubos yon lahat, My God! May spaghetti pa ngang niluto si mama ni Carolle. Kaya iniwan nalang namin sa kanila yung 6 cantons at isa pang natira na tasty bread. As always, foodtrip, Asaran at Picture-takings (Mama ni Carolle ang photographer) ang trip namin doon. *laughs* Nakakahingal nga yung Jumpshots eh! *chuckles* Gaya ng dati, mga luka pa rin sila, masasalaw pero super saya namang kasama.. Nakakamiss tuloy sila. Sana maulit :)

Kahit sampayan pinag-tripan eh! Haha.

Musta naman ang Jumpshot na 'to?
Galing namin noh? *laughs*

HAPPY HALLOWEEN!

   This day seemed to be so horrifying to me. Know why? I had a very traumatic-disgusting-humiliating experience today! I eventually told myself not to discuss it anymore, something like just learn from it and never ever mind it again. Ayoko na talaga alalahanin yon, kapag kasi sumasagi yon sa isip ko, ayan na ang goose bumps tapos yung feeling na gusto mo sampalin ang sarili mo para wag na isipin yon. Brrrrr! Ang immature ko talaga. Nakakahiya! ughh. Well.. I'll get over it. Lessons learned. *sigh*

TREMORS!

   So what's up with the title? *laughs* Btw, I kindly want to set my mood in order to write on a way I used to do.  I will leave the purpose on the last part. I'm kind of sick to this loooong vacation, I never knew that doing nothing would be such a problem? *puzzled* I have said it once, I think. But never thought I could have said it again. *LOL* May work na naman si mother. These past few days, hindi pa sembreak ang kapatid ko. So what do you think will happen to me? Oh yess.. I am now the Maid "girl of the house" haha. I could possibly die kung maghapon ba naman na wala akong kausap. I mean, nakakabato. Bored to death ang tema! What's funny then about being alone is that I learned how to wash laundry! Hooray! For the first time nakapaglaba ako ng maraming labahin. Naglalaba naman ako dati, yun nga lang mga 2 to 3 blouses lang. It could also be my own bags or shoes, whichever among them. Pero ang maglaba ng damit ng iba? Gross! Hindi ako sanay! haha pero ngayon, mukhang nag-eenjoy naman ako kahit marami ang nilalabhan  *giggles*  So, far from the usual me. *smiles*

   Btw, I was really Enchanted to the song "Enchanted" by Taylor Swift. Even though I knew it for so long, I never gave it much likeness or affinity (haha) until my attention was caught by this cute and unique version of the band "Owl City" (of Adam Young) to the song I've said earlier, Enchanted. Hey? sounds surprising! parehas ko kasi favorite si Taylor Swift and ang Owl City eh. And my most played songs during these days are theirs. Over-reacting na naman ba ako? haha But honestly, I soo love them both with their unique music and vivid descriptive-lyrics! *laughs* especially Owl City, my imaginations are really taking me away. *chuckles* What is so intriguing ay kung bakit 'tila parang yung version ng Owl city sa song ni Taylor na Enchanted ay isang response? I somewhat thought that Adam is a "feeler" haha I researched of it and found out that Taylor wrote the song Enchanted for Adam. Never knew they have that "something" *laughs* Yeeee! so sweet! *blushes* They are perfect together. Sana mag-work out ang kung ano mang relationship na mayroon silang dalawa! *laughs* 

   About the Terrible story, yung High School friends ko kasi,  since sembreak na, they are planning for some kind of Sleep over. Well, Sleep over na nga. Sa bahay nina Grace. Sobrang close kasi kami sa mommy ni Grace eh na kahit kami, "mommy" na rin ang tawag sa mommy nya. Okay, I'm in! kaya lang si super-conservative-kill joy-monster-mother ko, ayaw ako payagan! urghh. Nakakainis! ang dami-dami pa nyang sinabi kaya nagkulong nalang ako kanina sa kwarto ko at nag-soundtrip. Kinakausap nya ako at inaaya kumain, kaya lang naiinis lang ako sa kanya. Lalo tuloy sya nagagalit. I'm not hard-headed kaya lang, sana naman konting pag-intindi lang. Ang dami ko na ngang sinabi na safe naman doon, marami kami, magpapahatid-sundo pa ko to be surely safe. Wala pa din eh! Over-protective na sya! urghh! *sigh* I haven't eaten yet *mourns* I think ang huli kong kinain kanina ay yung dalawang tinapay na may chocolate spread. Kawawa naman ako. Take note, yon pa ang lunch ko kanina! supeeer urgh! haays. Thanks to this blog medyo okay na ako. *sigh* I love writing talaga. Huwag lang talaga tatamadin *laughs* Well, it saves a life I tell you. I'm planning to create a new post for my another blog. Sana makagawa naman ako, ang tagal na kasi noong last post ko doon eh. So? What's the helping-thing? To lift up my own self and free my thoughts from the verdicts of those beings who transformed me into a wretched existentialist.

RANCOR?

 "It's so crap to know that you do expect too much from a person that doesn't even give you any attention and appreciation in the first place." 

  Nothing. Just my previous status on facebook. Sa ngayon, gulong-gulo lang ang isip ko. I'd rather be numb by this time, I guess. Mistakes.. Mistakes.. Again and again and again. Nakakasakit na naman ako. Hindi ko ba alam kung bakit ko na naman nagawa yon. I really am guilty. I wanted to hurt myself *sigh* I'm so bothered. Ang dami-dami ko ng kalokohan sa buhay. Pati tuloy ang mga taong nagmamahal sakin, nasasaktan ko na. I am worth it? Do I deserve it? Okay, I'm sort of subconscious-minded right now. Am I inlove? or just falling out of love? Then shit if I do! I'm worn out to these feelings! I'm trying to seek the real me of where will I be happy and where am I supposed to be. Do I sound broke already? then go laugh at me. I'm really a gullible. Jerky-stupid! My anxieties won't leave me. Ayoko na syang masaktan, nakakapagod na. Pati ako nasasaktan sa mga bagay na hindi naman dapat nangyayari *sigh* Iiwas nalang muna ako at lilimot? I hate this horrible feeling of being such a shitty.

PERK UP!

   Yehey! SEMBREAK na! But am I really happy? Oo naman syempre! *laughs* pero in the other side of me, quite sad about it pa rin. HAPPY kasi yess! wala nang pasok! No more homeworks to do, No more exams to review and No more teachers to scold us pero SAD kasi No more friends to talk to, No more BAON and No more BSent 1-1 to laugh out loud 'til my tummy aches *sigh* Next sem kasi hindi na kami kumpleto and I'm quite upset about it. 

   This day final exam na namin sa Filipino, last subject nalang. Okay naman yung exam, sobrang strict ni Honorato sa amin. Biruin mo naman kasi, iba't-ibang sets kami ng exam plus sobrang equidistant sa isa't-isa na napakalayo. Too bad to those who did not study, the somewhat "cheating" was really difficult to do that time *laughs* uhm medyo nahirapan ako sa exam namin sa Filipino, ang hirap naman kasi talaga, hindi ko pa naaral yung ibang coverage ng exam kasi naman hindi ko alam na kasama pala, buti nalang talaga nabasa ko yung previous lessons before we have taken the exam. Pati yung history ng elektronikong pangkomunikasyon sinama pa ni Sir, so puro mga personalities yon. Errr! Annoying-rotten Mister! Oh wait, I remember after the exam, nagkabati kami ni bestfriend ko, may misunderstanding kasi kami eh. Something like "kaartehan" kasi eh but we're good and I'm happy about it, buti pinansin nya ako bago kami umuwi. We've gone to Waltermart Tanauan (as usual) last afternoon, makagala naman.. Sembreak na kasi eh, 3 weeks are really really a long vacation and I guess matagal na ulit ako makakapagliwaliw, walang budget eh. As usual routines, gala-gala and foodtrip sa Mcdo. Medyo marami ata yung nabili namin sa Mcdo eh, nilubos na ata ni Jessa. Hihi. Unexpectedly, noong palabas na kami sa Mcdo, nakita namin sina Eloi, Mariz, Kathleen and Rechelle na kumakain rin doon. Since ayaw pa namin umuwi, sumama muna kami sa kanila para gumala. Ayun, super laughtrip with them, as in SUPER! haha I had fun. Saya talaga kasama ng mga friends ko, still grateful to meet them. Kahit na KJ ako kasi hindi ako sumama sa swimming because of some reasons like I don't like, I don't want and I don't feel! *LOL* No offense! pero sasama naman ako next time, sa panahon na SUMMER na talaga at hindi tag-ulan. On our way out to Waltermart, Ang kukulit nitong si Eloi eh, dinadali yung sugat ko sa toes, so ouch talaga! Saka si Mariz, kinukurot ako saka hinahabol. Todo iwas na nga ako eh, meron na ata kasi akong "BriellaPhobia" *ROFL* I bet you already get it *laughs* Btw, I remember this super fishy-smelly-oily-greedy-bitter-arrogant-Jeepney Driver kanina! I couldn't forget him, it was my second time around riding to his rotting-junky Jeepney! Uber na eh, ang dupang eh! ang laki ng patong sa pamasahe, pagalit pa kung magtanong sa mga passengers lalo na sa mga students, hindi ba nya maintindihan na eksakto lang din ang baon naming mga estudyante sana naman konting consideration lang *sigh* Jessa, Eloi and I laughed to him too much talaga! Sabi namin, sa mahal ng pamasahe namin siguro golden wheels ang gamit ng driver, Diamond ang manibela at WIFI ang Jeep! haha super talaga eh. P5 nga ang patong nya sa pamasahe ni Eloi. Grabe lang! Bahala na si God sa kanya *laughs* basta ang mahalaga, masaya ako ngayong araw at sana mas maging masaya pa ako sa mga susunod na araw :)

Psychology!

  Alright. Its already our Finals' week! Disaster week again. So far, makakapasa naman ata ako sa lahat ng exams. I think so? hihi. One more subject to go then sembreak na! No classes today. A very big YEY! :) So we have a lot of time to study and relax *laughs* I have been so stressed yesterday. really really stressed. OA noh? Thank goodness lang talaga at hindi na kami nag-take up ng final exam sa Psychology kahapon. I was really happy. I know in myself naman kasi na I did not study well. Buti nalang talaga hindi natuloy. Sir Cueto told us that he knew that we were that stressed, so he decided not to give us final exam anymore. He really is a Psychology teacher, thanks to him he understands us *giggles* I guess He knew it that moment that we are really pressured to his upcoming interview. Yes interview, something like job interview. Requirements sa subject nya eh. So, The hell day is not yet over. urgh! We have dismissed too early, I guess 1 hour pa lang ako sa school eh pero pinauwi na agad kami. Umuwi ako sa bahay together with my bff. Around 1:15pm umalis na kami doon. Medyo nakakainis pa kasi naulan kahapon, we were in a corporate attires tapos maputik ang daan. So struggle kami on the way to school. Sa school ang haba ng pila bago ma-interview. Kinda real job interview huh? *laughs* So picture takings muna kami sa labas saka konting rehearsal sa mga sasabihin namin sa loob ng interview office. On my turn, gosh! I really got nerve pero bearable pa naman ang kaba. hehe Okay, we were already inside the office, the place we are supposed to be interviewed, I was somewhat relaxed naman, Yun nga lang, medyo nag-panic ako noong makita ko yung isang interviewer, dalawa kasi sila doon, si Sir Cueto and Sir Ron. Sir Ron daw is an HR at Daniel Mercado Medical Center according to Sir Cueto. Ang cute kasi ni Sir Ron, OMG! hehe but sadly, he's married! *sigh* LOLs. Okay naman yung interview ko, medyo kabado pa ako kay Sir Ron, first interviewer kasi sya eh, nakaka-distract pa ang charm nya hehe Then, kay Sir Cueto, hindi naman ako nabulol or whatsoever sa kanya, I spoke in english fluently. I think? haha Pinakanta pa ko ng Jinggle ng itatayo ko daw na business. I was really humiliated to what I sang *laughs* My interview was good but I didn't expect to be in Top 10 kasi ang panget ng sagot ko kay Sir Ron. Ginabi na kami sa school. After noon, konting tips lang galing kay Sir Ron then umuwi na kami. I got home around 6:30pm ata? naambon pa nga. I'm sorta in bad mood last night, kasi naman nadapa ako sa hagdan.. doon pa sa last step sa may hagdan ng PUP. Nakakainis lang kasi. Can't they provide standard lightings in their facilities? BADTRIP eh! hindi ko kasi nakita yung last step ng hagdan. Ang dilim kasi. Malabo pa ang mata ko. Buti nalang wala masyadong nakakita. I was really annoyed. I got some bruises on my toes *sigh* Ang aga ko tuloy natulog noon, masyado ko kasi dinamdam yung pagkaka-dapa ko *laughs* 

  Btw, Ang dami atang mawawala sa BSent 1-1 next sem, I'm so sad about it :( Ang saya-saya ko na sa feeling nila tapos mababawasan pa. Hirap talaga kasi pag college noh? Ang demanding ng magulang :( Gaya ko, gusto pa rin ng parents ko na lumipat ako para mag-engineering sa ibang school. Ang arte nila noh? hindi ba sila masaya na nagsisipag ako mag-aral para makatapos ako? Hindi ba nila maintindihan na hindi ko nga sabi kaya ang Engineering? Bakit ba lagi nila ako pinipilit sa ayaw ko? nakakalungkot lang talaga. Kahit nakapasa na ako sa PUP at lahat at nag-aaral ako ng mabuti, kulang pa rin. Hindi pa rin sapat. Ayos naman ang course ko ah? at lalong mas ayos ang school ko. Ayaw ba nila noon? Maliit na nga lang ang gastos nila sakin eh. Hindi manlang nila naisip na kapag pinilit nila ako sa course na ayaw ko eh baka hindi lang ako maka-graduate *sighs*

10/07/11 6:30pm

BADTRIP! BITTER! S***!
Yung feeling ng ma-reject? hindi man nya sabihin ng deretsahan!
errrr.. nakakainis talaga *sighs*

Ay grabe! nakakawalang gana :'(

GOOD MORNING!

   Good morning talaga? gabi na nga eh. 10:46pm. In business, lagi daw dapat ganoon diba? Good morning for a new beginning, new hope? *puzzled* tunay kaya? o sa world of business lang? I'm not sleepy yet, so I decided to post an entry here. Ano kayang mayroon? wala, just wandering. Speechless nga ako, ano kaya maikwento? *laughs* I guess I had a hard feeling past few days ago. Something like pagka-badtrip, inis at tampo? Really tampo? wala naman akong karapatan, bakit ako magtatampo? Hala. nababaliw na naman ako *sigh* Ewan ko ba. Too much expectations really lead to disappointments. Ano bang i-eexpect ko sa taong wala naman akong halaga diba? Ay, badtrip! Ayoko talaga ng ganitong feeling. Ang ganda pa ng date ngayon tss. Nandito na pala ulit ang laptop ko, good thing for me. Wala kasi akong magawa eh. Good thing also na tapos ko na ang project ko. So happy kahit nakakainis ang MS word. Halos mawala na kasi yung border designs ko. errr.. I hope its good enough. Final exams are ragingly-approaching! wish me luck. More stuffs to do, like homeworks and interviews. urgh! really make me sick. Ayaw ko pa mag-sembreak, ang saya kasi sa school eh. I'll surely miss my friends. 

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PS. Longer and wackier stories later.

SMILES OF SADNESS?

   Just a quick recap okay? for my laptop is not around due to an annoying reason. Today, Our kill joy teacher, "Hot Mama" had a quiz to us on a "No classes" day. urgh! so badtrip ako noong nalaman ko yon kagabi. Tapos today pa rin, Our school has done some "ANTI-DRUG" campaign sponsored by the most avoidable group in the school, TBPY. A very noticeable behavior of students that shown inside the campus is that "they are not interested" *laughs* but so true.. so are we. We've got out of gymnasium an hour ago for boredom destroys us. haha boring nya chever! Ninay, Mariz, Krsna, Jessa and other GFs of them along with me (ofcourse) went to Waltermart, Tanauan. May tampururot chever pa nga sila kanina. Super inip sa pag-iintay eh. We've got home so early naman today. Wanna finish that f*cking project! errr.. BTW, we have bought a buko shake in a new stall there in walter, grabe! super duper heaven! Best buko shake I've ever tasted! I got more than what I paid for *LOL* I wanna share it to you, it is so called the "Buko Express" walaaa! The best! Looking forward to taste another one :)

  There's more! There was a soooo creepy story I have read last wednesday. I really am not fond of Bob Ong's reading materials, not his fan also. When my best friend Jessa asked to read one, she borrowed the book "Ang mga kaibigan ni Mama Susan" -latest book of Ong, from Kathleen. She said it was so scary. Then, I took the dare to read it too! shiiits! it was so creepy! with the sumpa-thing! katakot eh! I can't sleep when I finished reading it. Grabe si Bob Ong, I kinda like him na *laughs* 

Tungkol pala doon kay someone na itago natin sa name na "Dayang-Dayang".. Uhm May great impact sya sa akin. I'm so sad about it.. Don't know what I want to happen between us and them :( JEALOUSY????? no! f***!!

CALAMBA CITY!

  Okay, I won't sleep until I don't give a moment to post my fun story here at blogspot. So, how do I do? haha Let's start last morning wake ups. I bet gravity has been so heavy today for I couldn't get up easily. So what do you think will happen? Oo, late kami sa klase. They already had their recitations and we were not there. Too bad for us. Pero hayaan na namin, next meeting sana pagbigyan pa kami mag-recite! *laughs* lagi kasing absent yung prof namin doon eh, ayan tuloy kinareer na namin yung pagka-late namin na first time ko ginawa! haha Maaga din naman kami na-dismiss today. Past few days, Ninay invited us to go with them in SM Calamba at syempre go kami dyan! I know naman, alam nila gala kaming dalawa ni jessa! lol. We also invited them to watch the Thai movie (I'm not sure kung Thai movie nga, basta yon na. hehe) The horror movie, 4bia. Eh sabi naman nila, waley daw silang adjet as of now kaya kung pwede daw next week nalang. Hindi ko rin naman alam kung may pera pa ko noon *laughs* I also noticed that they are somewhat scared to watch it, so I guess pass muna nga today. I think we've gone to SM calamba around 1pm. Ang dami nga naming magkakasama doon eh, puro BSent 1-1. Sa jeep pa lang, laughtrip na agad. hehe So happy to bond with them. Okay, 1pm na pero hindi pa rin kami nakaen. I knew it, for sure we were so hungry that moment. Hindi agad kami makakaen, puno kasi ang mga fast food chains. 

We just decided to take out some meals at KFC and I bet the boys, at Mcdonald's. Sa foodcourt kami nakahanap ng place na lahat ay makakakaen ng sabay-sabay. We ate there and were informed by Ninay na Self-service na pala ang linis doon. So arte ha? hayan, edi kami rin ang naglinis ng mga kalat namin doon. hehe Ang SM talaga ay going green ngayon ha? may parang "Claygo" (Clean as you go) na rin sila, gaya ng isang system sa STA :) I remember pa, sobrang kulit noong katabi ko kanina sa pagkaen eh, si Mariz! Uber sa Laughtrip, nangungurot pa. hehe Hayan tuloy kakulitan, hindi naubos yung food. Sayang eh.. tapos hetong si Sweetie ko, si Jessa, Inupakan na yung chocolate mousse ko! *LOL* pero ok lang, hindi ko rin naman mauubos yon lahat. After we had eaten, We played games and arcades there in Tom's world! kakaloka. Ang dami nilang ticket na nakolekta. Samantalang kami ni BFF, naglalaro lang. haha Pinagpalit ni Ninay yung ticket with I think, 5 angry birds pens, pencil and bracelets. She gave me one of those angry birds pens at masaya na ako doon *giggles* We've also gone to Nat'l bookstore, read some books. Then, ice cream trip and so forth..

  Around 3 o'clock, nag-aya si Ninay sa house nila, dito lang malapit sa SM calamba. So Jessa and I were still energetic that time and did not hesitate to come. Yung iba naming kasama, umuwi na kasama yung lahat ng boys. 6 na lang ata kaming pumunta kina Ninay eh. Okay lang naman sa amin yon, makagala naman dito sa Laguna. We rode on a jeepney and tricycle. The tricycle driver somewhat has been our tourist guide on our way to Brgy. La mesa (Ninay's house) while viewing the wonderful place there in Calamba, Laguna. Ang ganda ng Municipal office nila ha? Pati yung kinda Rizal park doon. hehe Waley ang Sto. Tomas eh *ROFL* When we got there in the house, we just sat by, surfed the net and took a rest. Jessa, Mariz, Eloi and I had some awkward-funny moment together when they used to play the song "Dayang-Dayang" there in Ninay's house. So much *LOLs* happened to us! The song really made me sick, it was annoying! with its Ilokano Language and weird melody. haha Kakatawa talaga eh! I coudn't forget that! *eksdi* 

Then, we watched some guitar tutorials of "Jorell" I think? - Mariz' cousin. He's cool haha together with Sungha Jung's covers and Sungha's girl version, Sandra Bae. Ninay bought us two pizzas, pa-merienda syempre hehe I refused to eat one, not that I don't like it but you know naman, I'm conscious of calories. *LOL* I've eaten to much that afternoon and I think that was enough *laughs* 

Grabe si Eileen! haha

After noon, pumunta kami doon sa park na may monument ni Rizal and had some wacky-funny-crazy moments together. With the jumpshots - especially yung kay Eileen haha and Wacky stuffs! They really had a good time and so do I. Sobrang babait nila, swear! They are unlike my High school friends, they are not Bullies. They respect each other still, tease each other but with care and sweetness naman. Sana maulit muli ang bondings na ito and I know It will.. May swimming pa naman, I'm looking forward to it! sweets! :) Mga 7pm na ata ako nakauwi, napansin ko, nalagas ang pera ko sa layo ng pinuntahan namin hehe Pero ayos lang naman diba? atleast I had fun with my new friends. Mas masarap pa rin talaga ang may barkada. hehe Okay, that ends.... :)

I'm not jealous, I just want you to give me more time and focus. I just want to catch your attention! I don't like seeing you texting while I'm there next to you. Shame on me. I feel disrespect and pity on myself :(

AIN'T ENOUGH?

   Do you know the feeling of really wanting to write something yet afraid of self-emotions to burst out? I'm into that feeling, kind of.. so tell me, how can I write better if I'm suppressing my emotions? Urgh.. Shut the crap up! I just don't wanna be bothered by this time. so.. okay, I guess two weeks rin akong hindi nakapagpost dito sa blog ko. Akala mo siguro kung ano nang nagyari sa akin noh? alarming kasi yung last post ko. Uhm, so many great and not-so-great moments happened during the time I was away (in front of my laptop. *LOL*) About my health, I'm gratefully okay. Balanced diet lang dapat. I still have lots of school works to do and I'm somehow planning to start it most likely, this weekends. Btw, ang dami talagang nangyari two weeks ago. Let me enumerate them first, The Bulgar selections of Sir Cabrera, then Final destination 5 cinema trip, The PUP Idol season 8 - My former classmate was the grand winner, Compliment of Sir Henry about me - good scores in Biosci (flattered!), The Annoying SIS - almost wanna kill the admins, Postponed cinema trip part 2 and lastly, Our quarrel! well.. I don't wanna discuss them anymore. They won't make me happy though. As of now, I'm just really upset. Kung pwede ko lang talaga sabihin lahat-lahat ng naiisip ko.. There are just thoughts and words that are better left unsaid I guess. Siguro kung homework itong post ko ngayon dito sa blog, for sure ife-failed ako ng english prof ko. Know why? hindi ko kasi alam ang topic sentence ko eh saka hindi ko rin ma-determine kung ano ang gist ng writing ko. All I know, My life is complicated (oh, lumayo na naman ako. ayy go with the flow nalang po *laughs*) I don't seem to have the "freedom" I used to have when I was still single and not committed. I don't know if we are just in an open relationship, a fling, a mutual understanding or simply just in a friendship. Frankly speaking, everything is irrational.. I don't know if our love is enough to keep us forever. Promises are made but how sure am I that the two of us can stay longer? What is the commitment? the security? the assurance of "only me"? sa sobrang hirap, madalas ko maisip na "magtransfer nalang kaya ako ng school?" not near Sto. Tomas. "How if I fulfill the will of my father to shift in an engineering course?" If I do so, I'm pretty sure hindi sa PUP. Ayaw ko naman ng engineering course, field of medicine talaga ang gusto ko - Dentistry and the like. Oh basta hindi naman sa course ang topic.. so, ayon nga I wanna feel a sense of independence.. I wanna do everything I want. I don't wanna waste my time. Pero kahit ano pang daydream ang gawin ko, I know in myself, I wouldn't be happy. I may be fulfilled but never happy. I know, deep in my heart sa kanya pa rin ako sasaya. No matter how wrong the two of us may be, I will never be happy.. never, kung wala sya. I just don't wanna be contained, I don't wanna be restrained. For instance, my parents, who are constantly reprimanding my decisions and interests. They don't believe in me, I knew it. hmm.. So yung sa aming dalawa, mahirap. Irrevocable lahat ng statement na nasabi ko patungkol sa kanya. I'm upset, really do. Knowing that I offered my life for the two of us. Kaya ngayon, hindi ko na kaya ng wala sya. You know, I've just always wanted to be contented, worry-free and happy. Just like the children frolicking everywhere and lounging around. I wanna take the venture of this dare. Whatever happens, I know Mahal ko siya. And whatever paths we are taking now, its all beyond our control and desire.

sigh!

    Padaan lang sandali ha? I'm not feeling well.. so many things bother me. Ang dami talaga! Hindi ko naman sila kino-consider na problem kasi ayoko problemahin yung mga bagay na sakit sa ulo pero still, bothered pa rin ako. So, may pinagka-iba ba? Ngayong mga oras na ito, nag-aaway kami. Ang dami ko pang projects/homeworks na kailangang gawin. Hindi ko sya pino-problema dahil sa rush ang submission dates, dahil yun sa hindi ko alam kung saan ko ba kukunin yung mga sagot don. Medyo mahirap kasi.. tapos ito pa, parang nagkakaroon ako ng complication sa health ko. Natatakot nga ako eh, kagabi lang umiiyak ako sa pag-aalala sa kalusugan ko. Ang weird eh, I seem to look normal but something's wrong inside of me. Sana kung ano mang kawirduhan itong sakit na tumama sa akin ay gumaling na agad. Haayyy.. I'm so upset :'(

I don't feel like doing anything.

     Supposedly nagawa na ako ngayon ng explanation sa report ko regarding The Human Nervous System but lazily, mamaya ko nalang sya gagawin. oh btw, funny to say, pero diet na ako ngayon. haha binabawasan ko na ang kain ko and oftentimes more likely not to eat rice. Sometimes, I feel so weak, dizzy atsaka wala sa focus. Ewan ko ba pero hindi na ako sanay kumain ng marami. Get rid of that extra-calories! *LOL* Well, i'm just doing good. Just had some reportings na nakakainis. Last thursday kasi, group na namin yung magre-report sa enma. I thought I had a big part na bias on my side. Naalala ko pa, the night before that day, naiiyak na ko kasi hindi ko alam ang gagawin kong explanation, nanlalambot ako noong mga time na yon eh and kinda felt sick. On the reporting day, aba ako na ang reporter tapos sabi ni ma'am skip na daw yung part ko. I didn't know if I would be glad or mad! I remember my feeling during that time. I've got so nerve. I drank too much water because I felt my mouth was starting to dry and never thought it could dry that much after I discussed my first topic. Pero yun nga, bago pa man ako maubusan ng water supply sa katawan, yung remaining topics ko ini-skip na! urgh kaya pala sabi ko parang ang layo na ng report ko sa entrepreneurship! hayy.. sana naman sinabi na agad ni ma'am para hindi na ako nakapag-prepare pa. Sayang lang eh. About hardware at software kasi yun eh, ang layo na sa business stuff dba? Well.. okay lang yun, kasi graded as a group naman kami. uhmm tama na! I've already moved on. haha Good luck nalang sa report ko sa biosci! I'm the leader of the group kaya ako ang nag-research lahat. oww kapagod nga. Feeling ko, subconcious ako ngayon? haha okay.. so long 'cause I'm so tired.

PROUD PUPian!

    Just a quick story about the Celebration of "Linggo ng Wika" held at PUP gymnasium. Yesterday was a massive day! It was the most awaited day of the month. Ito na yung moment ng pagpapakitang-gilas ng bawat isa. Dito na ipapakita ang pinagpaguran ng lahat ng departments sa kani-kanilang entries sa patimpalak na gaganapin. The sequence of event yesterday was first, Malikhaing kasuotan next, Sabayang pagbigkas then Madulang-pagsayaw. Honestly on my side, wala akong kinakampihan na kahit anong department o kurso kung sino ba ang magaling at kung sino ba ang mananalo (pero syempre konting will-thing rin naman na manalo ang BSentrep as part of them) Inumpisahan na ang malikhaing kasuotan at sadyang wala akong ibang masabi sa sobrang galing at creative ng bawat PUPians na nasa likod ng mga designs ng bawat kasuotan. Nakalikha sila ng obra mula sa basura! I was really impressed! Girls were really charming so as the boys who are all heartthrobs! Sinundan pa ng sabayang pagbigkas. During practice pa lang ng mga ka-course ko, I bet they are the best. Pero mukhang hindi ko na masabi yon noong napanood ko na ang ibang courses na magperform. Great voices, great gestures, great costumes and props! So impressive with the fire-blowing stuff plus the dove-throwing thing! haha ang gagaling. Everyone is excellent! Freshmen pa lang yang mga yan ha? and the last event was the Madulang pagsayaw with the so-magnificent concepts. Kind of drown with the "Bagong Pilipinas" song *laughs* yun ata kasi ang theme ng interpretative dance eh. I can't remember who are the winners of each event but all I know, BSEE is the overall winner. Despite of that, We BSEM (for all year level, BSentrep na kasi ang 1st year) got some awards naman kahit papaano, hindi nga lang overall winners. Well, I'm still happy and proud knowing all the performers were all my co-iskolar ng bayan, the PUPians! I really enjoyed watching the whole day event. I guess nakauwi ako mga 7pm na eh. This is the very first competition I witnessed here in PUP, patikim pa lamang ito and I'm expecting for more exciting events :) This is great! winner or not is my course, I still consider them winners for they also impressed me. Akala ko nga winners din sila pero sadly, hindi pala and hopefully next time victory for us. Lahat naman magagaling, yun nga lang mayroong dapat mangingibabaw among them. So much of this, basta all I can say, "All is Well"..  just like what one of the judges told us. Sabi pa nga nya gusto na daw nya mag-stay dito sa PUP eh :)
   Oh btw, stiff-neck struggle ako ngayon. Nahihirapan nga akong kumilos eh so, get well soon nalang sa akin! *LOL*