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Hellooo?? *kroo kroo kroo* Yeah yeah.. I’ve almost forgotten you, and I’m sorry. Summer is almost over and classes are about to start na and If I’m not mistaken, this blog is quite near to celebrate its 1^st anniversary. Whooo! That’s great! I’m writing like forever, maybe seldom but I assure to keep in touch. And don’t you worry my e-diary, I’ll never get sick of telling my stories to you. Just be patient if sometimes, I take so long in posting. *grins*

     Kung napapansin mo, iba yung presence ko ngayon, may iba eh, feel ko talaga yon. Unlike the usual me pero hindi naman dahil sa stressed ako or something. Neither am I a fretful lady, just lonely. My Grandmother kasi has just passed away a week ago. She had been confined at ICU for week and it was a total grief seeing her suffered there. Just so sad na ginawa na naming lahat para mabuhay si lola pero nawala pa din sya. Most of the time, I blame it to the hospital. Tss. *sigh* Pero sabi nga ng High school best friend ko, si Julius, “Kung time na nga ng isang tao, time na nya. Lahat naman dadaan sa ganoon at kailangan nalang tanggapin.” Okay.. Its just so hard to let go. Sobrang naging close kasi kami ng lola ko, mahilig sa gala eh pero sya yung madaling sumaya kahit sa mga simpleng bagay lang na naiibigay sa kanya. Hays. Si lola kasi yung nagpalaki sa’kin, lagi kasing nasa work ang parents ko noon, I think until 10 years old ako, si lola pa din ang nag-aalaga sa’kin. Naaalala ko pa noong bata ako, yung mga nights na hindi ako makatulog kapag hindi ko katabi si lola, ang ginagawa pa ng parents ko, pinapatulog muna ko sa tabi ni lola, sa bahay nila tapos bubuhatin nalang ako pauwi sa’min.  Si lola din yung kasama ko lagi sumimba. Hays. Sobrang mamimiss ko talaga si lola, ngayon pa nga lang eh.. :’( I hope she’s happy now and I know, she’s already in good hands wherein there’s no pain and agony. I’ll forever cherish every moment I was with my lola. She’s extraordinary, I really don’t know why things like this need to happen but we just have to accept it. My dear lola, I love you so much. Tingin ko nga, hindi pa rin nagsi-sink in sa mind ko na wala na sya eh. Still can’t stop my tears from falling, its really heart-shattering. I’m so speechless to what I feel, all I know is I’m sad but I think I’m ready to let go na.. Nakakaiyak lang talaga minsan kapag naaalala ko si lola. *sigh*