TREMORS!

   So what's up with the title? *laughs* Btw, I kindly want to set my mood in order to write on a way I used to do.  I will leave the purpose on the last part. I'm kind of sick to this loooong vacation, I never knew that doing nothing would be such a problem? *puzzled* I have said it once, I think. But never thought I could have said it again. *LOL* May work na naman si mother. These past few days, hindi pa sembreak ang kapatid ko. So what do you think will happen to me? Oh yess.. I am now the Maid "girl of the house" haha. I could possibly die kung maghapon ba naman na wala akong kausap. I mean, nakakabato. Bored to death ang tema! What's funny then about being alone is that I learned how to wash laundry! Hooray! For the first time nakapaglaba ako ng maraming labahin. Naglalaba naman ako dati, yun nga lang mga 2 to 3 blouses lang. It could also be my own bags or shoes, whichever among them. Pero ang maglaba ng damit ng iba? Gross! Hindi ako sanay! haha pero ngayon, mukhang nag-eenjoy naman ako kahit marami ang nilalabhan  *giggles*  So, far from the usual me. *smiles*

   Btw, I was really Enchanted to the song "Enchanted" by Taylor Swift. Even though I knew it for so long, I never gave it much likeness or affinity (haha) until my attention was caught by this cute and unique version of the band "Owl City" (of Adam Young) to the song I've said earlier, Enchanted. Hey? sounds surprising! parehas ko kasi favorite si Taylor Swift and ang Owl City eh. And my most played songs during these days are theirs. Over-reacting na naman ba ako? haha But honestly, I soo love them both with their unique music and vivid descriptive-lyrics! *laughs* especially Owl City, my imaginations are really taking me away. *chuckles* What is so intriguing ay kung bakit 'tila parang yung version ng Owl city sa song ni Taylor na Enchanted ay isang response? I somewhat thought that Adam is a "feeler" haha I researched of it and found out that Taylor wrote the song Enchanted for Adam. Never knew they have that "something" *laughs* Yeeee! so sweet! *blushes* They are perfect together. Sana mag-work out ang kung ano mang relationship na mayroon silang dalawa! *laughs* 

   About the Terrible story, yung High School friends ko kasi,  since sembreak na, they are planning for some kind of Sleep over. Well, Sleep over na nga. Sa bahay nina Grace. Sobrang close kasi kami sa mommy ni Grace eh na kahit kami, "mommy" na rin ang tawag sa mommy nya. Okay, I'm in! kaya lang si super-conservative-kill joy-monster-mother ko, ayaw ako payagan! urghh. Nakakainis! ang dami-dami pa nyang sinabi kaya nagkulong nalang ako kanina sa kwarto ko at nag-soundtrip. Kinakausap nya ako at inaaya kumain, kaya lang naiinis lang ako sa kanya. Lalo tuloy sya nagagalit. I'm not hard-headed kaya lang, sana naman konting pag-intindi lang. Ang dami ko na ngang sinabi na safe naman doon, marami kami, magpapahatid-sundo pa ko to be surely safe. Wala pa din eh! Over-protective na sya! urghh! *sigh* I haven't eaten yet *mourns* I think ang huli kong kinain kanina ay yung dalawang tinapay na may chocolate spread. Kawawa naman ako. Take note, yon pa ang lunch ko kanina! supeeer urgh! haays. Thanks to this blog medyo okay na ako. *sigh* I love writing talaga. Huwag lang talaga tatamadin *laughs* Well, it saves a life I tell you. I'm planning to create a new post for my another blog. Sana makagawa naman ako, ang tagal na kasi noong last post ko doon eh. So? What's the helping-thing? To lift up my own self and free my thoughts from the verdicts of those beings who transformed me into a wretched existentialist.

RANCOR?

 "It's so crap to know that you do expect too much from a person that doesn't even give you any attention and appreciation in the first place." 

  Nothing. Just my previous status on facebook. Sa ngayon, gulong-gulo lang ang isip ko. I'd rather be numb by this time, I guess. Mistakes.. Mistakes.. Again and again and again. Nakakasakit na naman ako. Hindi ko ba alam kung bakit ko na naman nagawa yon. I really am guilty. I wanted to hurt myself *sigh* I'm so bothered. Ang dami-dami ko ng kalokohan sa buhay. Pati tuloy ang mga taong nagmamahal sakin, nasasaktan ko na. I am worth it? Do I deserve it? Okay, I'm sort of subconscious-minded right now. Am I inlove? or just falling out of love? Then shit if I do! I'm worn out to these feelings! I'm trying to seek the real me of where will I be happy and where am I supposed to be. Do I sound broke already? then go laugh at me. I'm really a gullible. Jerky-stupid! My anxieties won't leave me. Ayoko na syang masaktan, nakakapagod na. Pati ako nasasaktan sa mga bagay na hindi naman dapat nangyayari *sigh* Iiwas nalang muna ako at lilimot? I hate this horrible feeling of being such a shitty.

PERK UP!

   Yehey! SEMBREAK na! But am I really happy? Oo naman syempre! *laughs* pero in the other side of me, quite sad about it pa rin. HAPPY kasi yess! wala nang pasok! No more homeworks to do, No more exams to review and No more teachers to scold us pero SAD kasi No more friends to talk to, No more BAON and No more BSent 1-1 to laugh out loud 'til my tummy aches *sigh* Next sem kasi hindi na kami kumpleto and I'm quite upset about it. 

   This day final exam na namin sa Filipino, last subject nalang. Okay naman yung exam, sobrang strict ni Honorato sa amin. Biruin mo naman kasi, iba't-ibang sets kami ng exam plus sobrang equidistant sa isa't-isa na napakalayo. Too bad to those who did not study, the somewhat "cheating" was really difficult to do that time *laughs* uhm medyo nahirapan ako sa exam namin sa Filipino, ang hirap naman kasi talaga, hindi ko pa naaral yung ibang coverage ng exam kasi naman hindi ko alam na kasama pala, buti nalang talaga nabasa ko yung previous lessons before we have taken the exam. Pati yung history ng elektronikong pangkomunikasyon sinama pa ni Sir, so puro mga personalities yon. Errr! Annoying-rotten Mister! Oh wait, I remember after the exam, nagkabati kami ni bestfriend ko, may misunderstanding kasi kami eh. Something like "kaartehan" kasi eh but we're good and I'm happy about it, buti pinansin nya ako bago kami umuwi. We've gone to Waltermart Tanauan (as usual) last afternoon, makagala naman.. Sembreak na kasi eh, 3 weeks are really really a long vacation and I guess matagal na ulit ako makakapagliwaliw, walang budget eh. As usual routines, gala-gala and foodtrip sa Mcdo. Medyo marami ata yung nabili namin sa Mcdo eh, nilubos na ata ni Jessa. Hihi. Unexpectedly, noong palabas na kami sa Mcdo, nakita namin sina Eloi, Mariz, Kathleen and Rechelle na kumakain rin doon. Since ayaw pa namin umuwi, sumama muna kami sa kanila para gumala. Ayun, super laughtrip with them, as in SUPER! haha I had fun. Saya talaga kasama ng mga friends ko, still grateful to meet them. Kahit na KJ ako kasi hindi ako sumama sa swimming because of some reasons like I don't like, I don't want and I don't feel! *LOL* No offense! pero sasama naman ako next time, sa panahon na SUMMER na talaga at hindi tag-ulan. On our way out to Waltermart, Ang kukulit nitong si Eloi eh, dinadali yung sugat ko sa toes, so ouch talaga! Saka si Mariz, kinukurot ako saka hinahabol. Todo iwas na nga ako eh, meron na ata kasi akong "BriellaPhobia" *ROFL* I bet you already get it *laughs* Btw, I remember this super fishy-smelly-oily-greedy-bitter-arrogant-Jeepney Driver kanina! I couldn't forget him, it was my second time around riding to his rotting-junky Jeepney! Uber na eh, ang dupang eh! ang laki ng patong sa pamasahe, pagalit pa kung magtanong sa mga passengers lalo na sa mga students, hindi ba nya maintindihan na eksakto lang din ang baon naming mga estudyante sana naman konting consideration lang *sigh* Jessa, Eloi and I laughed to him too much talaga! Sabi namin, sa mahal ng pamasahe namin siguro golden wheels ang gamit ng driver, Diamond ang manibela at WIFI ang Jeep! haha super talaga eh. P5 nga ang patong nya sa pamasahe ni Eloi. Grabe lang! Bahala na si God sa kanya *laughs* basta ang mahalaga, masaya ako ngayong araw at sana mas maging masaya pa ako sa mga susunod na araw :)

Psychology!

  Alright. Its already our Finals' week! Disaster week again. So far, makakapasa naman ata ako sa lahat ng exams. I think so? hihi. One more subject to go then sembreak na! No classes today. A very big YEY! :) So we have a lot of time to study and relax *laughs* I have been so stressed yesterday. really really stressed. OA noh? Thank goodness lang talaga at hindi na kami nag-take up ng final exam sa Psychology kahapon. I was really happy. I know in myself naman kasi na I did not study well. Buti nalang talaga hindi natuloy. Sir Cueto told us that he knew that we were that stressed, so he decided not to give us final exam anymore. He really is a Psychology teacher, thanks to him he understands us *giggles* I guess He knew it that moment that we are really pressured to his upcoming interview. Yes interview, something like job interview. Requirements sa subject nya eh. So, The hell day is not yet over. urgh! We have dismissed too early, I guess 1 hour pa lang ako sa school eh pero pinauwi na agad kami. Umuwi ako sa bahay together with my bff. Around 1:15pm umalis na kami doon. Medyo nakakainis pa kasi naulan kahapon, we were in a corporate attires tapos maputik ang daan. So struggle kami on the way to school. Sa school ang haba ng pila bago ma-interview. Kinda real job interview huh? *laughs* So picture takings muna kami sa labas saka konting rehearsal sa mga sasabihin namin sa loob ng interview office. On my turn, gosh! I really got nerve pero bearable pa naman ang kaba. hehe Okay, we were already inside the office, the place we are supposed to be interviewed, I was somewhat relaxed naman, Yun nga lang, medyo nag-panic ako noong makita ko yung isang interviewer, dalawa kasi sila doon, si Sir Cueto and Sir Ron. Sir Ron daw is an HR at Daniel Mercado Medical Center according to Sir Cueto. Ang cute kasi ni Sir Ron, OMG! hehe but sadly, he's married! *sigh* LOLs. Okay naman yung interview ko, medyo kabado pa ako kay Sir Ron, first interviewer kasi sya eh, nakaka-distract pa ang charm nya hehe Then, kay Sir Cueto, hindi naman ako nabulol or whatsoever sa kanya, I spoke in english fluently. I think? haha Pinakanta pa ko ng Jinggle ng itatayo ko daw na business. I was really humiliated to what I sang *laughs* My interview was good but I didn't expect to be in Top 10 kasi ang panget ng sagot ko kay Sir Ron. Ginabi na kami sa school. After noon, konting tips lang galing kay Sir Ron then umuwi na kami. I got home around 6:30pm ata? naambon pa nga. I'm sorta in bad mood last night, kasi naman nadapa ako sa hagdan.. doon pa sa last step sa may hagdan ng PUP. Nakakainis lang kasi. Can't they provide standard lightings in their facilities? BADTRIP eh! hindi ko kasi nakita yung last step ng hagdan. Ang dilim kasi. Malabo pa ang mata ko. Buti nalang wala masyadong nakakita. I was really annoyed. I got some bruises on my toes *sigh* Ang aga ko tuloy natulog noon, masyado ko kasi dinamdam yung pagkaka-dapa ko *laughs* 

  Btw, Ang dami atang mawawala sa BSent 1-1 next sem, I'm so sad about it :( Ang saya-saya ko na sa feeling nila tapos mababawasan pa. Hirap talaga kasi pag college noh? Ang demanding ng magulang :( Gaya ko, gusto pa rin ng parents ko na lumipat ako para mag-engineering sa ibang school. Ang arte nila noh? hindi ba sila masaya na nagsisipag ako mag-aral para makatapos ako? Hindi ba nila maintindihan na hindi ko nga sabi kaya ang Engineering? Bakit ba lagi nila ako pinipilit sa ayaw ko? nakakalungkot lang talaga. Kahit nakapasa na ako sa PUP at lahat at nag-aaral ako ng mabuti, kulang pa rin. Hindi pa rin sapat. Ayos naman ang course ko ah? at lalong mas ayos ang school ko. Ayaw ba nila noon? Maliit na nga lang ang gastos nila sakin eh. Hindi manlang nila naisip na kapag pinilit nila ako sa course na ayaw ko eh baka hindi lang ako maka-graduate *sighs*

10/07/11 6:30pm

BADTRIP! BITTER! S***!
Yung feeling ng ma-reject? hindi man nya sabihin ng deretsahan!
errrr.. nakakainis talaga *sighs*

Ay grabe! nakakawalang gana :'(

GOOD MORNING!

   Good morning talaga? gabi na nga eh. 10:46pm. In business, lagi daw dapat ganoon diba? Good morning for a new beginning, new hope? *puzzled* tunay kaya? o sa world of business lang? I'm not sleepy yet, so I decided to post an entry here. Ano kayang mayroon? wala, just wandering. Speechless nga ako, ano kaya maikwento? *laughs* I guess I had a hard feeling past few days ago. Something like pagka-badtrip, inis at tampo? Really tampo? wala naman akong karapatan, bakit ako magtatampo? Hala. nababaliw na naman ako *sigh* Ewan ko ba. Too much expectations really lead to disappointments. Ano bang i-eexpect ko sa taong wala naman akong halaga diba? Ay, badtrip! Ayoko talaga ng ganitong feeling. Ang ganda pa ng date ngayon tss. Nandito na pala ulit ang laptop ko, good thing for me. Wala kasi akong magawa eh. Good thing also na tapos ko na ang project ko. So happy kahit nakakainis ang MS word. Halos mawala na kasi yung border designs ko. errr.. I hope its good enough. Final exams are ragingly-approaching! wish me luck. More stuffs to do, like homeworks and interviews. urgh! really make me sick. Ayaw ko pa mag-sembreak, ang saya kasi sa school eh. I'll surely miss my friends. 

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PS. Longer and wackier stories later.