THE FACT SHEET!

   Oh God! This is so annoying! Wanna bite a people, really! Errrrr! Its 11:12pm and still I’m waiting for our internet connection to get back, kainis ang Globe eh! Maghapon na! Amp. I can’t sleep. Oh nooooo! What am I gonna do now? We don’t have an internet connection as of this very moment, what else can I do? Nakakabato na kaya yung mga palabas sa cable. Tss. This is pissing me off! Sira ata ‘tong laptop ko eh, ang sabi ba naman sa net connection eh, “Network 5: Internet Access” Shets lang, eh pagka-open ko naman ng browser “Problem loading page” slash “This webpage is not available”. Fcking Prank then? Not now, wala ako sa mood. Ahhhhh! Sa sobrang badtrip ko, I even bit my lower lip that hard causing it to ache like this. Hanubayan.. Ang OA ko naman mainis? Well.. This is really freakin’ irritating, truly. I’m like insomniac tonight. Ugh, ikaw ba naman kasi ang gumising ng 10am. Oh well, you will not wonder why I’m like this way.. Yeah, yeah. Eh ano naman ba ang problema kung ganoon? May magagawa naman ako kung sakaling hindi ako makatulog eh.. pero ngayon? Goddamn sheyts, walang internet connection! Tiniis ko na ‘to buong maghapon ah. *grunt* This is a torture! It makes me wanna daydream about the things I really want to have right now.. my materialistic plans. Hmm.. Buti nalang maganda ang araw ko ngayon, nasisira lang talaga kasi hindi ako makatulog ngayong gabi. Nabibingi naman ako mag-soundtrip ngayon, mas hindi ata ako makakatulog. Not this time. 

   PS. Ang gagu talaga ng laptop ko, tiningnan ko ulit eh. Internet access daw tapos ayaw naman magloading ng fb.com. You bitching me out talaga ha? Tss. I’ll try to sleep. Calm down Idynell. Ang OA mo na naman.

   PS. again, I’m so bitter noh? HB kasi eh.. Oh don’t you dare think that I’m Heart Broken. Yuuuck?? I’m High Blood today, okay? For now, that’s the meaning of HB ha? Ha? Yeah I know you get it na. Kkbye! Uhh wait, ipo-post ko nalang siguro ‘to sa blog ko bukas ‘pag may net connection na. Night.

HAPPY 1ST ANNIVERSARY!!! =)

"If I’m not mistaken, this blog is quite near to celebrate its 1^st anniversary. Whooo!" 

     Yan ang sabi ko sa last post ko, but when I checked my very first post on this blog, I've seen June 06, 2011! So, ano ha? HAPPY HAPPY ANNIVERSARY!! More stories to share!! :) Kaya tune in lang! HAHAHA.

PS. Natatawa nalang ako sa tuwing nababasa ko yung posts ko last year, na halos mabaliw ako sa TBPY. Haha! Get over it! =D

Stay..

Hellooo?? *kroo kroo kroo* Yeah yeah.. I’ve almost forgotten you, and I’m sorry. Summer is almost over and classes are about to start na and If I’m not mistaken, this blog is quite near to celebrate its 1^st anniversary. Whooo! That’s great! I’m writing like forever, maybe seldom but I assure to keep in touch. And don’t you worry my e-diary, I’ll never get sick of telling my stories to you. Just be patient if sometimes, I take so long in posting. *grins*

     Kung napapansin mo, iba yung presence ko ngayon, may iba eh, feel ko talaga yon. Unlike the usual me pero hindi naman dahil sa stressed ako or something. Neither am I a fretful lady, just lonely. My Grandmother kasi has just passed away a week ago. She had been confined at ICU for week and it was a total grief seeing her suffered there. Just so sad na ginawa na naming lahat para mabuhay si lola pero nawala pa din sya. Most of the time, I blame it to the hospital. Tss. *sigh* Pero sabi nga ng High school best friend ko, si Julius, “Kung time na nga ng isang tao, time na nya. Lahat naman dadaan sa ganoon at kailangan nalang tanggapin.” Okay.. Its just so hard to let go. Sobrang naging close kasi kami ng lola ko, mahilig sa gala eh pero sya yung madaling sumaya kahit sa mga simpleng bagay lang na naiibigay sa kanya. Hays. Si lola kasi yung nagpalaki sa’kin, lagi kasing nasa work ang parents ko noon, I think until 10 years old ako, si lola pa din ang nag-aalaga sa’kin. Naaalala ko pa noong bata ako, yung mga nights na hindi ako makatulog kapag hindi ko katabi si lola, ang ginagawa pa ng parents ko, pinapatulog muna ko sa tabi ni lola, sa bahay nila tapos bubuhatin nalang ako pauwi sa’min.  Si lola din yung kasama ko lagi sumimba. Hays. Sobrang mamimiss ko talaga si lola, ngayon pa nga lang eh.. :’( I hope she’s happy now and I know, she’s already in good hands wherein there’s no pain and agony. I’ll forever cherish every moment I was with my lola. She’s extraordinary, I really don’t know why things like this need to happen but we just have to accept it. My dear lola, I love you so much. Tingin ko nga, hindi pa rin nagsi-sink in sa mind ko na wala na sya eh. Still can’t stop my tears from falling, its really heart-shattering. I’m so speechless to what I feel, all I know is I’m sad but I think I’m ready to let go na.. Nakakaiyak lang talaga minsan kapag naaalala ko si lola. *sigh*

AWKWARD. :3

   Yung ganitong feeling? Yung ang bigat-bigat ng nararamdaman mo pero hindi mo maipaliwanag kung bakit. Wala lang, hala sige! Iyak-iyak lang pero tuwing tatanungin mo ang sarili mo, ni hindi mo manlang magawang i-verbalize yung mga bagay na nararamdaman mo.. basta ka lang mag-eemote dyan, adik lang? Feeling ko, the world is against me so then I got to be outta here I guess? *poker face* Its just too rough. Emotionless girl right here but deep down inside I'm.... *sniffles* Hays. Sobrang speechless ako. Nobody understands me, nobody really knows me and knows my worth. I may be so far from the usual beings but this is just me. Ang sakit lang na... Just so I can tell everything in here. :'( Makapanood nalang ng Corazon, Ang Unang Aswang, I don't wanna be so so Overreactive.

PS, wala akong kakampi. Poooooor me.

There's a zombie..

   Ano? Zombie na koooo! I'm so much distressed and I really have to recuperate my energy! Jeez! I need more sleep. *sigh* I'm so sorry for taking so so long in posting here. I'm just, just so not have enough time to spare kasi eh. I wish I can tell every minute details of every action I make, pero hindi eh. I have so many appoinments pa, my summer job is a torment plus yung applying of scholarship, we really have to work on that. I guess, just a couple of weeks and we'll be done on our summer job. But its still a long wait for me and I have to be tolerant. Though we have not much work to do inside the office, its still tedious, boring! Gosh, if its not really for the money, I won't be able to finish this.

I can't feel the summer heat!

   Ginusto ko mag-summer job, kaya magdusa ako! Hoho. Uhm, honestly, I hate the early-wake-ups and early-sleep-nights routine. Its tortuous! I'm being embraced by some pimples pa in addition to that said torture. But that's just the price I gotta pay. Feeling like somewhat imprisoned inside the office? But the fact is, not really. Exaggerated lang ako. Haha. Actually, I'm really having fun. Its like I've gotten another group of family & friends. I so love Tito Marco. Hehe. First impression ko sa kanya, bitterstrict! *laughs* Pero mali pala, he's affable. Sya din yung tagalibre lagi ng meryenda namin. He won't let us down. Haha. At na-discover ko pa pala na pinsan nya si Sir Cueto, yung Psych teacher namin noong 1st semester. Same surname kasi eh kaya naitanong namin. Akalain mo nga naman, what a small world. (Sto. Tomas lang naman eh. *LOL*) Haha. Sa PUP din daw kasi nag-aaral yung anak nya. Uhm, hindi lang naman si Tito Marco ang mabait sa office, lahat naman, kahit si Boss! Sponsor sya lagi ng mga meryenda namin eh. So galante! Haha. *grin* They're nice. Guide us, instruct us, teach us what to do. And my "SPESmates" ha? We're like family na. Ingay namin sa office! Like a Boss nga daw ang tema kapag solo kami don. Hoho. Plus the cranky jokes of them. They're so nice to be with especially Keeno. =D

   And check this out! Grabe! Sobrang ihit ako noong isang araw sa office dahil kay Bisaya Boy! Hahaha. Nakakahiya nga eh. Kahit sina Tita Zeny, nakikinood na. Ito kasing si Bisaya boy, sobrang crush si Robi (yung co'SPES ko.) Eh grabe lang ha? I don't know what she felt after seeing this video. Asked her, mixed emotion daw! *LOL* She appreciates that of course pero nado-dominate daw ng saya ang puso nya kakatawa. So are we. Di na ko makahinga dyan eh, grabe lang! *eksdi*

    I got no time to stay online any longer. Sobrang budget na budget ko ang oras ko dahil ako'y kulang na kulang sa tulog. I enjoy what I'm doing but I have to be manageable enough to the sort of things I'm into, so that I can be productive. Byee! =D

How are you?

   Okay. Okay. I know right? I'm like gone for a long time and so pasensya na! Hihi. I am just busy?? *grins* Sa totoo lang, ang dami ko ng kwento. In fact, I don't know where to begin. *laughs* Summer na! Yep yep. Its official! Classes are over and I am young, wild and free! *LOLs* But! I refuse to be free (but that's beyond my choice. Haha.) I told you diba? I applied for a summer job. Ayun! We have started already last Tuesday. Supposedly, sa library ako assigned together with Sir Pitt (Woah!) pero since hindi naman daw sila nangangailangan pa ng staff, temporarily, sa MENRO muna ako. (Pero I guess, di na ko maililipat pa. Haha.) At ang sobrang nakakatuwa pa, doon din assigned yung bestfriend ko! Haha. KISMET!! =D I'm so HAPPY! May ka-kwentuhan ang lola nyo during office hours. *laughs* 1st 3 days are cool, we met new friends, Keeno, Ate Kristy and Robi who are our fellow "SPESmates". *laughs* As of now, light pa lang yung work namin sa office. Uhm pero, tila ata parang workshop ang pinuntahan namin ah. Kasi naman, puro artworks ang pinapagawa nila eh, like personalized-beads made of recycled papers. Hay nako! MENRO nga eh, dapat eco-friendy. Ahh, nature-destroyerlover naman ako diba? Hahaha. Hmm. Kami din yung assigned mag-design sa bulletin board. I hope it'll be just fine. Hehe. Akala ko ba more on clerical works kami? IDTS. *chuckles* Day 3 today and We are forming a bond already even with our Kuyas, Ates, Titos, Titas and kay Boss! Haha. Puro foodtrip naman sila sa office eh, syempre hindi naman pwede na di kami kasali, so.. nakakahiya man at dahil napilitan lang, ayun! Puro kaen lang din kami. Haha. Mananaba pa ata ako don ah? At teka, may clown kami sa office, Si Tito Marco kasi eh, ang chickboy na tomboy daw ng MENRO. =D Hindi naman sya tomboy eh, he's a straight man! Pero mukha syang tomboy! Haha. Lagi namin yon napagkakatuwaan nina Jessa at Keeno e. Comedy kasi sya. =D Pero take note, hindi sya nagpapatawa ha? *LOL* Sya kasi yung tipong kung ano ang mapansin, sinasabi nya. Kaya tuloy in his own ways, he entertains us. *laughs* Sya din pala yung nagpapagawa sa'min ng beads. Sakit na nga ng kamay ko don. Pahirapan ba naman kami? (Pero kung hindi naman dahil don, wala kaming gagawin) *giggles*

   Enjoy naman ako sa summer job ko. Haha. Even though, I already stopped the up-all-night-routine in order to get up earlier in the morning, masaya pa din. =D kahit na madalas, nagkukulang na ang tulog ko. I am somewhat distressed but I can recover naman inside the office. You know, well-rested on a chair. Haha. I was just kinda upset kasi yung akala ko na hindi na ko mapapalipat, nagkaron pa ata ng lamat. Kukuha pa kasi sa'min ng isang SPES (kasi nga madami kami don eh, 5.) I am afraid It would be me. Kung kailan naman close na kami sa mga tao don, saka pa ipu-pull out ang isa. Kung pwede lang, wala ng mabawas sa'min. Hmm. But if it'd be me, its just fine. No hard feelings. I just hope everyday at work, I can be at my best when doing appointed-tasks.